Struggles to improve

The thing about it is, if I keep at it, if I keep doing what I'm doing, I should theoretically get better with experience.

But it's hard to know what that means. There comes a point when you just don't know what the problem is; and if you don't know what the issue is, how can you know how to address or improve it? And so what do you do then? How do you keep learning and growing? Where do you go, who do you talk to when you don't know?

Sure, there are others around me, but they're busy, and they get tired of all the questions, and - more importantly - they make it sound so easy. "All you do is" this; "you just have to" do that. It sounds like it is not a big deal. It's so simple, see? The answer is right here!

But if that's the case, why isn't it actually making a difference? Why am I not seeing changes? How do I make the connections for them? How do I speak the language I need to learn, to make sense of what the body does or doesn't do? How do I get through to them?

It's beyond overwhelming sometimes, and intimidating. Sometimes it feels as if there is nothing more I can do, sometimes it feels like a lost cause. Why do I even bother? I need something good, I need a positive thing, some sign I am doing the right thing here.