It has been a lot harder to stick to my "three times a week" writing schedule than I thought. Inspired though I was, ideas abounding, I let life get in the way. The inspiration ebbed, and here I am waiting for the flow. I let the endless household chores and Zoey's endless puppy energy be the things that I "had" to take care of.
I simply can't sit down and write now; that takes concentration, and look at all this laundry! Look at the veggies that need to be chopped! Zoey needs an hour long walk, and she's looking at me with those incredible puppy eyes! And doing that hippity hop she does. Oh and all those errands to run! Costco and Paulina Meat Market and Kriser's and the gas station and Howard's Wines and the vet....oh, and the studio! And now it's been a month since I last sat down to write.
It's terribly disappointing to love the idea of writing on a regular basis and then not actually honoring that commitment to myself. Add that to the list: "Ways I've Let Myself Down." Ahh, well, I'm here now, so enough of the self-pity :)
What's been going on this month? Well, where should I start?!
Andrew and I just returned from an Independence Day trip to Seattle - look for a post soon! - where we had a ton of fun. Muscle car shows, twin engine planes, a four mile run along the Sound, coffee, beer, everything!
We have most of our Italy trip booked - I'm so excited!! And...io sto imparando Italiano! I have been taking weekly Italian classes at Multilingual Connections, and I am loving it. What a fun language - I love the way the words sound and feel when you pronounce them. A few weeks ago I took one of those silly facebook quizzes (what kind of <fill in the blank> are you?) which informed me that I love words, and my Italian language experience is definitely confirming this.
Andrew and I invested in a new digital camera for our Italy trip. I've been busy taking lots of pictures (much to my husband's chagrin) and am trying to learn Adobe Lightroom - it is insane what you can do with a photo post production.
For the last few months I've been doing a lot of soul searching in regards to teaching and my career path. The books and movies always make soul searching sound easy, almost romantic. All you have to do is don your denim jacket, go to the nearest bridge overlooking a beautiful river, preferably at night when all the stars are shining, and the Truth will come to you.
It suffices to say, this has not been my experience. It's been a rough couple of months, rife with anxiety and crabbiness. My body is a wreck (and not just from all the running), but I finally hit the proverbial rock bottom, emotionally, and I am on my way back up! I've recommitted to myself physically, and I am close to a place where I can be genuine in evaluating my hopes and needs for teaching.
It feels really good to be on the upswing. It's cliche but I truly feel like a weight has been lifted off me - there is so much less pressure on my chest and shoulders these days. I'm looking forward to once again being productive with my thoughts and actions, and (sappy me) am thankful I have a great guy there with me.
